Unsent Letter: 004

December 25, 2025

Dear Mom,

Merry Christmas. I miss you, as always. I wish you could be here to see how much has changed.

Maya just turned two – she recently said potato. She's so stinking cute.

I turned forty this year. I'm old, mom. Makes me wonder what you felt when you turned 40?

If what that gypsy woman said was true, at Lilly Dale, then I have 14-17 years left. I hope not. I don't think my children would be ready for that. I know I wasn't when you left us.

Mija's pregnant, we just found out. I'm worried, but I think we'll be ok.

I wish you could see how much sobriety has changed my life for the better. I wish you knew what it felt like to wake up with a clear head. I made a choice, and I chose to give it all up.